Gosh, I can't believe it's been over a month since I've written anything. It seems like when I just wrote in my private journal I would write more. Maybe the idea of other people reading my thoughts is intimidating, but it's exciting at the same time.
Well, I'm still struggling with raw foods. I believe in eating foods in their natural state and I love the fresh and vibrant taste of fruits and veggies...but I'm still craving the bad stuff. Not so much sweets anymore, I think I've conquered that temptation for once in my life. But I find that I crave hamburgers!!! How disgusting is that!!! I don't know what's wrong with me, and it bugs me to no end to think that I would even want a hamburger. Here's the thing, I'm not against eating meat altogether. I believe that God created some animals for us to eat...BUT I have a huge problem with factory farming and the way the animals are treated. Plus most meat is full of hormones, antibiotics and other nasty stuff. So why do I crave the darn things! I'm wondering if I'm low in iron or something else that would make me want them...or is it just that my family eats them and I am tempted when I see them indulging?
Anyway, I've decided to go on a detox. I'm not really following any specific program, I made up my own. I'm doing 3 days of water (with a slice of lemon in it), 3 days of organic juice and 3 days of just smoothies. Then on the 10th day I will introduce small amounts of food, either fresh fruit or a small salad. I'm really hoping that this will "kick" me of my cravings for meat, once and for all.
Well today is my fourth day, 3 days on water and today, just juice. The juice has helped me feel stronger today. Yesterday I was so weak, I really didn't want to do anything. But I had a horseback riding lesson and instead of canceling it I went. Well, let me tell you, it was hard. Grooming the horse in the hot sun and then riding was just too hard on my body, I had to sit down and take a break 3 times. I almost felt like I was going to be sick and faint.
Luckily I had read that you will get tired and lethargic and sometimes it's just better to take a break from everything and rest, so I wasn't freaked out, and I didn't want to give up just because I felt bad.
Today was much better. I started drinking juice and it made me feel better. But I did get very hungry today and my family had burgers again....ugh!!! When will it ever stop!!
I'll let you know how it's going! I'm off to watch "Hell's Kitchen" with the final three!
